Blog of "LOST"

It is on the best, purely perfect hand, unbelievably perfect. So perfect! Let it grow, let it shine, shine on a perfect hand ....don't let anyone destroy it or don't even allow myself to get the perfect hand and the brilliant diamond have any flaw as I really love my diamond so much!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sw-OhoF1C8I

I am in need of another float as the float i grabbed that saved my life before is coking me worse than ever.

Maitri

Karuna

Mudita

Upeksha

How many can you do?

I know someone who can do all these. Just so perfect!

Still lying to myself..keep lying, lying, lying until I die...........because that's the only way...........

Please give me power to run, run, run as I cannot do what I promised and I hate it.

No jealous...I am not suppose to....I don't have the right to, but............why?

Still have so much wonders in my mind  as I lost all the trust from the pain before..........

Still think the best way is to......................

Down, down, down, ??????, sick, sick, sick

http://www.lyricsfreak.com/x/xscape/the+arms+of+the+one+who+loves+you_20147671.html

It is really so hard to get back what you have lost.... Anyway, it doesn't really matter..... Still, still still thinking leave him alone is best for both because, he is in a good hand. Happy for him:-) but,.......

Still struggling what is best for both...especially for him. 

Still, still, still, mainly because of the pain from the past..Too afraid to get hurt again. Also concern of his future and his feeling.. Does he really need me or......

If he is in love and is truly happy with his partner, i think i should leave him alone...