What should I do?

Išsiųsta 2010-10-04 iki planetstars
Nuotaika: Kill ME!!!!.

very very very very unhappy......

but, I have to wear a mask and act like nothing every day..

It is so hard, so hard to pretend.....

It is so hard to sleep, so hard to get up, so hard to face people, so hard to work, so hard to breathe, so hard to live.............

How can you smile when you are bleeding inside?

I want to scream, I want to cry, I want to get vanished, but I cannot.........

what should I do other than screaming online and knocking down myself with alcohol every night?

:-( :-( :-(